"Fellowship of The Sufferings"

These days my post are all so spiritual/scriptural, wordy without pictures..pardon me, I guess that's how it's gonna be like for the next 5 months. (It's basically my life now, accompanying me through it all. It's what I eat, drink, sleep and think about)

Day in, day out, I'm preoccupied by SOT in the early half of the day :)) , tuitions later half of the days and driving, hopefully I'd be able to strike out driving by the end of next week, its draining too much of my finance!

Back to the topic for today, I think the more I learn in SOT the more I understand why certain things are happening. He allows trials to happen only because He's drawing us back to Him, then again to be Christians we are to go through the fellowship of the sufferings, to be identified with what Christ had gone through for us, to be nailed on the cross, But God when will the power of Resurrection come upon my situation?

Its been 3 months now, and I'm still nursing an open wound.  Times when I struggled, you seem pretty fine all certain of where your future leads to, nowhere for me to be in it, you even told me to stop liking you. 

Finally decided to muster up all courage and determination to stop struggling and let God have His way, yet somehow you'd pop back into existence telling me how that heart of yours hasn't died.

What am I to say or do? (the ball has always been in your court)

We can always look back and be bitter, and miss out on all things in the future, or look forward and start anew.

For now I wanna place Him as my focus, I'm drained from thinking there's hope in a week, and hopeless in the next, I'm just directing my emotions and strength on the wrong things. SOT is once in a lifetime, its all or nothing at the end of 6 months, and I want it to be my all.

"You have to forgive and forget, and forget, to feel again"

the past hurts and pains has to die then only can you feel again, then will you know if what you do feel at the end is true and pure.  I haven forgotten the night of 14th Feb, the things we said..
Just at this season of time I need God's strength to get through the past too, to focus on what I have to now.. 

All others can wait, and I'll trust in His providence over my needs and desires.

Love Protects

Grateful Blessings

He proves Himself faithful when we are faithful in the things He has called us to.

Week 2 of SOT has just passed and the windows of heaven is still open, pouring blessings upon blessings financially.

To Brenda, Jasmine, Belle and one other(who wishes to remain anonymous :)) whom "invested" in my spiritual future, I'm really thankful that God caused our paths to cross. Thank you for the love and the encouragements, I believe these are friendships made in heaven <3

To Eugene, fellow fighter in Christ, thank you for being so generous and concern checking on every possible occasion if I have enough to get by, offering to pay for the cab fares when we shared cabs, and paying upfront first for the zone purchases that I recently made (please please remember to claim them back for yourself oki)

May y'all experience multitude of blessings in return too!

Week 3 of SOT is gonna be better than before, here comes feeding and digesting on the "meat".

Looking forward to four full days of serving in SOT choir, I'd treasure such an opportunity.

God here I am, Send me.

Believing is Seeing

"Congratulations! you guys have survived the first week of SOT!" exclaimed Pastor Bobby at the start of this morning's session.

This entire week was just eye-opening, Faith building and totally fulfilling.  I mean who wakes up 6am every morning saying "Praise the Lord for another day! The joy of the Lord is my strength" and goes about preparing for school, dressing up, putting on full make-up with the entire heart filled with excitement?

I DO!! the flesh gets weak at times but I've actually never felt so fulfilled in my life before, not until this week happened.

Half an hour of praise, an hour odd worshiping and moving in the spirit, everyday has something new to look forward to; a new touch from heaven, a release from the cares from the world. :)

FAITH FAITH FAITH..IMAGINATION IMAGINATION IMAGINATION...BELIEVING BELIEVING BELIEVING...SEEING SEEING SEEING

I cannot even begin to accurately explain how I feel, but I do know, transformation is taking place, I just know I love Him so much more, an unspeakable kinda joy, unspeakable kinda love that overwhelms me.

Even when the journey has just begun, I'm starting to get blessed in my soul, my finance :)

An additional tuition assignment commencing next week. One more unconfirmed assignment, praying that I'll get another 2 more and I'll be able to earn the amount I wrote in my "2011 goal setting card" to sustain me through SOT this 6 months!

PTL!

Just take a step of Faith, embark on the path to where He leads you and know that He will see to your needs!

He Hears! He Hears!

It's supposed to be bed time now, but I've just gotta blog about this otherwise I won't be able to sleep!

Li Ping called at 9plus and the start of the conversation went like this:

LP: "Mel I've got good news to tell you!"

Mel: "Huh what good news?(a lil' confusion mixed with a lil' excitement)"

LP: " Your SOT will be sponsored by HALF!!!"

Mel: *Jump out from my couch, dash to my room, jump around* "AHHHHHHH HAHAHAHA! PRAISE THE LORD!"

followed by many laughter, many 'thank yous' to my wonderful leaders - Dorcas and Li Ping for applying for my SOT sponsorship and pushing for it to be approved without even me knowing about it!  

I am happy to say I'VE GOT THE FULL AMOUNT TO COMPLETE MY SOT FEES!

So So thankful to God, I know now all those nights on bended knees and tear streamed face, times when my only weapon for breakthrough was left with fasting; He hears, He answers my prayers, my cries.

If He answers this prayer, He'll answer my other prayers in time to come too :D - He's never late, never too early, He is always on time.. I'll be trusting in His unfailing love for breakthroughs to come in my family as well as my relationship.

Today was my first day at SOT preparation course, it was just too surreal to finally be stepping into church, putting on my SOT badge and spending the whole day just enjoying His word, His presence in His house all day long.  

Greater things have yet to come :D so excited to see what's ahead, and what God will be doing in my life.

I SERVE AN AWESOME GOD!